April Showers

Happy Friday beauties! I look forward to this day every week not only because it’s the start of my glamorous weekends (kidding), but because usually our weather starts to change again. I swear it has a weekly cycle it goes through. Right now, we’re in the rainy stage of it. It’s been gray and overcast for the last few days and I’m tired of it. They say “April showers bring May flowers” though.

Since April is the Mid-Atlantic’s rainiest season, I haven’t been thinking much about the loveliness that spring holds. Like I said, the skies are overcast and dropping enough rain to last what seems like a lifetime. In the midst of all this gray, I’ve tried to incorporate color into my life. It’s like that quote from Albert Camus, “In the midst of winter I found there was within me an invincible summer.” No matter the weather, live like everything is alive and blooming.

Go for a walk in the rain and wear bright rain boots. Drink some tea and admire the buds on the trees. Buy a vibrant accessory for the season. Spring is all about hope and the knowledge that tomorrow will be even more beautiful. Enjoy the rain and all that comes with, because it brings the most extraordinary things in May!

Rainy Days

Today is one of those days that I find myself in a very rainy mood. Though the sun shines outside my window, I’m a little rain cloud inside. As most of you know, my life is at a stand still right now. I’m waiting on either an acceptance or rejection from several companies I applied to work for and frankly, the wait is emotional agony. Half of me would like to believe that I’ll get the position I want and the other half snickers at the thought.

I’ll try my hardest not to dump my emotions into this post.We all have our own battles that we face. Mine just so happen to be what every college graduate is facing- the fear of unemployment. I try to think about the best possible outcome for myself but the uncertainty of it all just clouds the positivity with anxiety about what’s coming next.

People bombard me with messages to stay positive and expect the best possible outcome. I understand their sentiments and appreciate their wisdom. However, I think everyone deserves a “rainy day” sometimes. It’s awfully hard work trying to stay positive when all you want to do is lay in bed all day.

It’s kind of a lonely feeling. Unless someone else is going through the exact same thing they’ll never understand your outlook. We tend to live lifestyles that only have regard towards happy times and can’t understand seasons in life that are demoralizing.

Personally, I’m embracing these feelings and thoughts I have. Chasing them away consumes more energy than I have.